"She took a leap and built her wings on the way down" - David Brinkley
I love it when I can learn completely new things about myself, feeling like I just surprised myself with a hidden secret or an unexpected present, because the best thing we can do for our self is getting to know the real person, behind all the masks, social expectations and "should"s.
I said good-bye to "should"s a long time ago, when I realized that living by other peoples standard or giving into social expectations is the most reliable way to be unhappy, especially if you are a nonconformist person and a stubborn one, on top of that. All I should do now is what makes sense to me and makes me happy or serves a personal purpose. It doesn't get me a lot of admirers, but at least it is an authentic life: crazy, chaotic and lovely.Lately I'm all about pushing my boundaries, trying out all the unexpected things possible, just to see what I like and what is it, that really makes me tick.
The best people are the ones who know you, or, if you are really lucky, understand how your inner mechanics work. I feel blessed, because I have a person like that in my life, and he is capable of confronting me with all the things I avoid so carefully, but I guess sharing a birthday does that to two people: they get to call you on your BS and point out your mistakes. So lets see if I can implement the advice I got.
In a nutshell here it is, the week that was hell on earth at work: steaks were raised, friendships consolidated with wine and good advice and limits pushed to the wild side, because above all, I want to feel alive. New things come into our lives, as we shove out the old, even if they are challenges of the size of a mountain, but I'm sure I will survive for 10 months.
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